The Joy of Manifesting Life- Letting Go

I've found that in order to start over with anything in life, we must let go of the past as much as possible and then we'll have a clean slate to work with. I say "as much as possible" because sometimes there are issues hidden in our psyche that we are unable to access right away.

We can try to focus our energy on the issues we know exist and release them, however, the others that remain dormant in our system need to be extracted as well. This can happen and usually occurs when our ego kicks in high gear, triggering an emotional response from a new event. This emotional reaction is not due to the event itself, but that old energy we hadn't cleared out. Though this may make us feel lousy, it's probably the best thing that could happen and it's temporary. Again, this is a good thing! Tears are even better since they literally cleanse your body of anger, pain and all the other residual crap you don't need.

I had a few recent events trigger some issues from (what I thought was) my long buried past, but I was wrong about that. Surprise, surprise! LOL! It really is funny when I look back at the last few months. When I posted about starting over and creating new beginnings, I really thought I was already there. Apparently that was my intuition showing me what my mind, body and spirit is gearing up for. It's looking like my emotions are being triggered by the strange synchronicities I'm experiencing with my husband's past, my childhood and our family situation as a whole (not talking about the kiddos here).

On June 8th I posted a focus in the chapter, "Working Through Obstacles" and it was, "Letting go of my old programming and expectations then let the Universe guide me to my next step." That was almost a month ago and here it is. My past thought processes are coming to the surface to be extracted. Yay for me and holy shit, it's really happening! I love seeing the fruits of my subconscious labor.

Like I mentioned earlier, it's the family situations that are kicking my emotional ass lately. A few months ago my sister brought me a bunch of her family drama and I rejected as much as I could since I spent years trying to detach from bio daddy, his wife and her daughter. Now another situation has come up that has provoked thoughts of my not so wonderful childhood. I've noticed that I swing from, "This sucks. I was cheated" to "I'm so very lucky to be blessed with this crazy intuition, otherwise I wouldn't have turned out right".

Today I've been bombarded with a dozen epiphanies about my current situation. I think about my husband and how incredibly lucky he is to have grown up with such an amazing family. My father-in-law is one of the greatest, most intelligent men I've ever met. He's opinionated, genuine, a fantastic father and rock solid with his beliefs. I'm so thankful I attracted my husband, who shares many of his father's qualities and I really hope my son turns out to be a lot like them. I'm grateful for all the wonderful things my father-in-law has said about me to my husband. It's heart-warming, but makes me wonder why my own father never noticed or even cared. I guess the old saying, "One man's garbage is another man's treasure" truly applies to me right now.

There are so many things in life we take for granted and although I didn't have the greatest family growing up, I surely have one now. I'm truly grateful and I think that's the biggest epiphany I had today. With that said, I believe I'm in a physical transition to whatever that next step is and I'm dying to find out.


 "Love never dies.  It simply transfers from this life to the next."



In loving memory of my father-in-law, Tom Andrus (1945-2012).