This Fall I'm connecting with the source quite easily. I think it's because I've dropped a tremendous amount of negative garbage from my shoulders throughout the past two years. I've only had one epiphany this season. I don't have problems. Everything I'm dealing with is other people's shit. Not dealing with it anymore!
I spent the last 5 years slowly ridding myself of the past, toxic people and situations. There's a certain consistency I was hoping to achieve and I have. Yes it took A LOT of work and my husband's natural ability to ignore my bullshit helped me reach the finish line. Although I'm very grateful for him, I worked my ass off to attract someone of his caliber.
Honor, respect and loyalty is all it takes to make me happy. Sadly there are not enough people readily available to us who have these qualities. This is why my circle of true friends is small. I no longer have a huge group of acquaintances either and I'm thrilled. The older I get, the less time I feel like wasting on people who won't really matter in the end. I'm not here to impress anyone. Those who are actually impressed by me are actively involved in my life and they couldn't care less about how much money I have, things I possess or people I'm connected to. You're not going to find my Instagram full of pointless selfies (unless one of the kids is posing with me) or me trying to pretend I'm someone else.
Honor. Respect. Loyalty
If you give it, you'll get it back in spades.
Now just because you think someone should be loyal to you doesn't mean they will or even have to be. I choose to remove myself from a situation if I feel I'm not compatible with another person and/or the situation isn't good for all parties involved. 99% of the time I leave someone who lacks of one of those rare traits. The way I judge a situation is by testing the intentions behind the (seemingly) negative actions. If it appears as though someone didn't realize what they were doing, then they get a one-time pass. Most of the time they DO know and DON'T CARE about how their actions are affecting others. This to me is unacceptable. The older I get, the less bullshit I can tolerate.
After realizing and accepting that serious truth, it became so much easier to dump the crap that was weighing me down. I wasn't able to keep a happy place consistent in my energy because, unbeknownst to me, I really did care what others thought of me to a small extent. This created a wall that didn't allow me to move forward in my own life. I broke it down and it no longer exists. Funny, all it took was a slight perspective change and following through with honoring, respecting and being loyal...to myself.
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