After my last vent session (This Is My Truth) I received some very encouraging emails. I thank you guys for this even though I wasn't fishing for compliments. Your words made my heart happy! It feels like forever since I got rid of smelly garbage, but I always feel better afterward. I think it's important for us to dispose of our crap when necessary to make room for new situations to enter our space.
Since school has recommenced my daily routine has been a lot more open. All three children (our son and the stepkids) are gone all day and I can finally focus on myself 100%. It's taken me the entire month of September to get into the groove though. I feel like I spent the last 4 weeks recovering from the summer. Having them at home all day (every other week), with the stepkids constantly fighting, sucked the life out of me. It still feels as though I don't have enough hours in my day to get everything done.
Angelo is now 6 years old and in 1st grade. I couldn't be more proud of my lil buddy. He's the light of my life and continues to amaze me with his growth. He seems to gain more maturity right after his birthday every year. He's a little advanced for his age academically, which makes me happy. He's the tallest in his class, yet the youngest. Angelo is still playing soccer and he begins his first year of basketball this January. My son is the center of my Universe. I never knew what real love felt like until I gave birth to this very special boy. I'm so grateful for motherhood.
I have so many things to focus on these days, but the most important one is my happiness. It doesn't matter how many times I think about it or even say it. Making myself a top priority, above those who don't really matter, has been difficult for me. We all know that one cannot be happy all the time though. I think this is a lesson everyone goes through, over and over again. I'm not even sure consistency is achievable, but it's worth a try. So with all that said, focusing on what makes ME happy and not worrying about the negative reactions I'll receive from those insignificant people is the main goal of this Fall transition. There have already been some very positive developments and I'll be sharing those at a later date.
So now I get to look forward to all my favorite Fall activities. I'm just hoping that Angelo finally gets on board with Halloween. He's been breaking my heart the last couple of years by staying home :(
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