Let me also say, for the record, that I didn't bring it upon myself so this is the Universe's doing all the way. This doesn't mean that 2012 didn't bring some positive events in my life, but much fewer than previous years, which saddens me a little.
If you have been following the blog in 2012 you know that my father-in-law passed away on June 4th. This was by far the worst event of the year and of my life thus far. Though we knew it was coming and had a tentative time frame, nothing prepares you for the feelings that arise from such a tragic loss...and Tom's death was indeed tragic to me. I've since dedicated my website to him as he was a great supporter of my career.
The first 6 months of 2012 wasn't too bad and was pretty uneventful, with the exception of Tom's journey with Cancer. It wasn't until the summer that everything started to erupt. First Tom, then 4 other members of our family passed. One each month. We ended up having issues with my husband's EX again (for no good reason of course), which put me in a place to re-evaluate my position with her and my stepdaughters. At the end of the summer the ex-wife became pregnant again and my stepdaughters lost their damn minds. Acting out, fighting with one another, grades dropping, you name it. It's been quite stressful to say the least. The only good thing coming out of this garbage is the epiphany I had about ACCEPTANCE and DISENGAGEMENT. This is saving my life right about now.
I had a couple of life changing epiphanies last year. 1- I was fat, 2- I had an addiction to cigarettes and 3- I was over extending myself with my step-life. Okay, I obviously knew I was a nicotine addicted fatty who took on other people's smelly garbage when I shouldn't have, but I finally decided to QUIT. January 2nd, 2012 I started my weight loss journey which led me to shedding over 40lbs. On 12-12-12 at 11:30pm I extinguished my last cigarette and I've almost reached one month of nicotine sobriety after 21 years of smoking. Also around that time I decided to practice the art of LETTING GO with the ex-wife and my stepdaughters. This is my first full week in session being as though we had the short part of the Christmas break with the kids last year.
My family came down for Thanksgiving this year. I hosted a bunch of people for the entire weekend at my house and we cooked our first turkey. It turned out very well and we had a fabulous time. My sister and I have created a new tradition of going shopping on Black Friday together every year now. This includes both our husbands as well. This was our 3rd year doing this.
In closing I'd like to add that my favorite part of the year was when I quit smoking and realized that I wasn't the true bitch I was meant to be. That damn nicotine was smothering my ability to voice my opinions without sugar coating. Holy shit....and WTF? So now there's a huge weight lifted from my shoulders, I smell much better, I can finally be myself 100% and be in great health!
With all of this said, 2013 has got to be a better year no matter what the Universe tosses my way.
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